A Rebellion for Confidence

Time drifts slowly by as I count the days until I get out of here. The walls seem to close in on me as I stare at everything and nothing. That time is drawing near, but it hardly feels like it’s coming fast. I feel the stress creeping up on me, and I can’t seem to shake it loose. I ask so many times, “How much more can I take?” I never seem to get an answer, but then again, no one is here to tell me.  I would ask those around me, but I doubt they know the answer, either.  The people who surround me feel the same way.  All we seem to do now is complain about the things that don’t seem to matter anymore. We don’t know what to do.  All this waiting makes us feel more insane than we already are.

            The adults tell us what we should know, but by now I don’t think that too many people actually care about it all.  Many of them think about how life will be when they get out of here. Plenty more people only wish for it all to be over. I, on the other hand, can’t wait for the adventure that lies beyond this place. The adults, though, tell us that what we expect after here is not what we wish for. Some question what they know. After all, they stayed here. We know that, in the end, they were the ones who were too afraid to leave or were tourists who just couldn’t leave the magic behind.  We, younger people have decided that everything here is not what we want, but no one knows how to change this place.

            The adults say that they try to protect us from the outside.  They tell us stories of what happens to those who leave, none of which are ever pleasant.  There have been many people who tell us that we must obtain something in order to be able to survive here happily.  I guess that is what everyone is trying to find out. Some aren’t even sure they want to find out what is on the other side of this wall.  The King himself has given up on us, as the adults have given up on leaving here.  Our mayor of the village does not want anyone who happens on this village ever to leave.

            The children, including me, want to change what the village is like, but we have yet to find a way to change it.  Only knowing that we have to obtain something has everyone deciding to go on a journey, but no one knows what it is that we have to obtain.  Some have decided to form groups, while others have decided to go by themselves.  I decided to leave with my best friend, Alcina, who has always been with me, no matter what happens.

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To be continued...